When you’re faced with tough decisions that affect your life and health, you can find yourself with a head full of information and a heart still empty of answers. This has been my story. Me, feeling lost and crying out to God, searching the scriptures and trying to listen.
I read again how “God, who gives life to the dead, and calls the things that are not, as though they were“ spoke the world into existence.
“Let there be light, and there was light.”
I whisper this prayer: Lord, be my Light.
I read again the words of Jesus.
“I am the Good Shepherd. My sheep hear my voice.”
Oh, Lord, let me hear your voice clearly.
I keep meditating on the name of Jesus and His power to save, heal and deliver.
Jesus – Yahweh saves. Yahweh from God’s actual name revealed to Moses, YHWH, I AM.
“I am the resurrection and the life.” Jesus’ declaration just before raising Lazarus from the dead.
“I am willing,” he said. “Be healed!” Jesus’ response to the Leper who asked to be cleansed from his disease.
There came a time this summer when I found myself praying with a new boldness and belief that Jesus was not only able, but willing to do the same for me. That through the cross and resurrection, He had provided salvation for me which was complete in every way. I reached out to Him for healing and prayed that He would bring confirmation for His glory and that my husband would be in full agreement of my desire to rely on the Lord for what I now call my ongoing “supernatural natural” wellness plan.
Later, I began to try to share this with my husband (except the last part, about him being in agreement.) He listened quietly. I wondered if he thought I was a little crazy. Then, a while later, he looked at me and said He felt the Holy Spirit speak this same message to him that very day. When I thought back, it was about the same time I was praying.
I sat there with tears in my eyes and praised God for that moment of relief, that moment when you realize He really is listening and He really does care.
Of course I still have questions. I have much to learn. But God has confirmed over and over that He is in control. Even today, I am rejoicing that blood tests show my cancer markers are in the normal range!
Praise the LORD!
I don’t have all the answers. I’m just trying my best to follow the One who does. Meanwhile, I want to encourage others who may read these words to keep praying, keep seeking, keep believing that God will do the impossible for you.
“Even the winds and the waves obey him!” This was the disciples’ reaction when Jesus calmed the stormy sea raging around them.
I hope this new song by Chris Tomlin will stir your heart as it has mine. May this be the anthem we sing in the middle of life’s storms.