I saw this video and wept. Maybe because the song is so beautiful.
Maybe because the sentiment is so honest and timely for me to hear since my own recent diagnosis of cancer.
It’s hard for me to type those words much less admit that this is really happening to me.
But it is.
And so begins a new journey for me, one I hope I will be able to walk through with grace so that God is glorified in the process.
At the moment, all I see is a body broken, the life I once knew crumbling around me. But I know there’s more to the story, that God has a plan to redeem this pain; and I pray a better me will emerge after finding Him in the ruins.
So I can’t pinpoint why exactly but, the other day, I found myself fighting tears. They were so close to the surface all day long.
Maybe there’s no good way to describe that feeling. It’s just that suddenly those emotions you’ve been trying to ignore, well they finally get fed up with being forced into silence. They demand to be heard!
And there comes a time when you stop pretending to be tough and you start being honest with yourself.
You’re just worn out.
(Or as we like to say in the south, “worn to a frazzle.”)
If we come to Jesus with anything more than nothing, we come with too much… He’s after a grateful people, not a perfect people. He’s after a responsive people, not a self-helped one. Live loved. That’s our call. That is our job. Even when we’re worn out, worn thin, and feel like we’ve got nothing left to offer Him, all He demands is our nothing.
I never knew anything about golf until I met my husband.
Because of him, I have now become acquainted with the game as well as some of the elite players who have made it their mission to sink a little white ball into an elusive hole on some of the most beautiful courses in the world.
It is harder than it might seem. Getting that ball to go where you want it to go. You have to avoid the obstacles – stay out of the rough, the sand, the water. You have to factor in things like wind currents, the type of equipment being used and the topography of the course itself.
Some have compared golf to the journey of life. Both require hard work, patience and persistence. Author Dr. David Cook uses the analogy well in his inspiring book Seven Days in Utopia. You may have heard of the movie by the same name that was just released. My husband read the book a while back but I think I need to since coming across the clip below.
It is the author reading an excerpt of the sequel and, though you may think it is a little too long, I enourage you to watch. It isn’t so much about golf as it is redemption. About letting go of lies and reaching out for your dreams.
God made each of us for a reason and he wants us to understand that there is so much more to life than trophies or the applause of men.
He is calling us to follow him. When we allow him to lead, there is a noticible, you might even say revolutionary, difference that takes place in our lives. Like a golfer with a singular goal, we gain a clearer focus, a driving passion we didn’t have before.
Today, if you feel unfocused, like you’ve lost your way, God will meet you where you are. Maybe you would like to declare along with the author in this video, “Let the revolution begin!”
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13
One of my all-time favorite stories of the season is A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens. Ebenezer Scrooge has an encounter on Christmas Eve that changes him forever. His life goes from miserable to merry in a beautifully written tale of hope and redemption.
What about your story? Maybe, like me, you are able to identify with certain aspects of Scrooge’s inner psychosis. Sometimes, circumstances can cause us to shout our own version of “Bah, Humbug!”
It is easy to understand how a troubled childhood or lost love or the normal struggles of life might have turned him into a curmudgeon. But the process must have been so subtle, so gradual, that he was not able to see himself as he really was.
I wonder if this is true of us as well. How can we prevent ourselves from slowly becoming someone other than the person we want to be?
What would our lives be like if we allowed ourselves to look back at our past with honesty, face our present with courage and imagine our future as it might be if we continue to chart the same course?
The good news is that the same hope found by Ebenezer exists for us all! As long as we have breath, we have a chance to embrace change and write our own happy ending. God is able to redeem everything in our lives. The choice is ours. So, before the clock strikes midnight, let us examine our own hearts and pray that God will allow Scrooge’s story to inspire our own story of transformation this Christmas.
“It was always said of him, that he knew how to keep Christmas well, if any man alive possessed the knowledge. May that be truly said of us, and all of us! And so, as Tiny Tim observed, “God Bless Us, Every One!” ~ Charles Dickens