Where Light Finds Me

~ Here’s something I wrote when I was wrestling with a decision recently. Thought I’d share in case someone else out there is feeling a bit lost in the dark too. ~

The moon is rising and the world is hushed as a sea of blue cascades through sleepy-eyed window blinds into this room. The soft light spills over my desk, piled high with books and other discarded papers.

I’m here again at my computer. Struggling for words. Lost in the half-dark. Searching for answers that don’t come easy.

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I cannot hide. The Light has found me, exposing my angst. And I know a cleansing must come.

In the quiet space that holds my unspoken prayers, I let go and breathe slow. Suddenly, it feels as if this room, my heart, the whole, big, crazy world has been washed in glistening grace.

God is here, and my heart floods with peace in the warm, liquid glow of twilight.

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I pray the Light finds you today, wherever you are.

Saving the Day

In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters. And God said, Let there be light: and there was light. Genesis 1:1-3 

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The first command, the first words of The WORD as recorded in the very first book of the Bible are, “Let there be light.”

This weekend, we (that is, most of North America) will set our clocks one hour ahead in an attempt to save a little daylight.

We like light. The more light the better. Because we live in a world that is spiritually dark, we crave the light.

But we cannot create the light. Only God can do that.

And so, the first book of the New Testament announces the birth of Jesus. The prophecy was now fulfilled. The One, the only One, who could save the day – He came to save our souls.

The people living in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of the shadow of death a light has dawned.” Matthew 4:16, Isaiah 9:1-2 

If you need a reminder of the awesome power of God, check out this beautiful video. He who spoke the universe into existence, can speak light into your dark.

If you have trouble viewing, click here.

God’s Incredible Creation – The Arctic Light Time Lapse from ourprecioussavior on GodTube.

A Safe Place to Dream

I said in an earlier post that I was going to be writing throughout the month of March on the subject of “the shadows that shape us and the Light that saves us.” So when I saw this challenge from Holley Gerth, I knew exactly what I wanted to share today.

Holley asked us to write “A Letter to the God-sized Dreamers – telling your sisters why what they’re doing and who they’re becoming through this process is worth it–even on the hard days.”

I’ll begin with a little back story. For most of my life, I’ve been a shadow-dweller. Hiding myself and my God-given dreams from others. Trying to protect myself from being judged and ridiculed. I was afraid to let the real me be seen and, as a result, I even forgot who I was.

To this day, it’s something I still struggle with. I have to consistently work on overcoming my desire for other people’s acceptance because I know good and well that I’m accepted by God. He knows me, He loves me and that’s all that really matters.

I recall a conversation I had a few years ago with a woman who was grilling me over my job-status. I’m paraphrasing, but this is the gist of that conversation:

“What do you do all day?”
Well, I do a lot of writing. I volunteer, I…
 “Are you still looking for a job?”
Well, sure. I’d love to be working full time but…
“Wow, I could never do that. I’d be so bored.”

I felt condemnation in her questions. Especially when she told me about some of the women she knew who just went to the gym or the spa all day while their kids were at school. It sounded like she was insinuating that women who did not work outside the home were all the same – lazy, good-for-nothings. It wasn’t hard to figure out that she pretty much had the same opinion of me.

And the thing is, it hurt.

I told her that this season of my life had been tough, but it was just that – a season. And I did not know how long it would last but I was trying to learn whatever God was trying to teach me through it.

I think I actually heard crickets as she stared at me, silent, eyebrows arched, as if waiting for a better explanation.

The truth is, I wasted a lot of time fretting over the set-back of unemployment until I realized that even this was part of His plan for me. That “down time” had an up side. It made me look up. It caused me to grow closer to God and re-connect to my true self.

And, for that, I am thankful.

I’m also thankful for the empathy I now have for those who suffer in ways we cannot see. I wonder how many times I may have judged a person unfairly without knowing or caring to learn their story. What I’ve learned is that our paths are different. Your journey will not look the same as mine, and mine may not make sense to you but we all have one common denominator.

We belong to God. And we are slowly becoming the person He designed us to be.

“For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Ephesians 2:10

Our lives, our giftings, our dreams are all unique and they come from our Creator and no one is less than or more than another.

So maybe we should stop pouring salt in each others wounds with our insensitive words and condescending looks and silent presumptions and accusations. Let’s give grace to one another because it’s a lot easier for us to fulfill our calling when we have the encouragement of our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.

Just think how far we could go, what heights we could climb, if we could share our true selves and support each other in pursuit of the dreams God has placed in each one of us!

“And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.” Hebrews 10:24-25

Maybe something has thrown you off course. You’re in a place you’ve never been before, a place so dark you can’t see your way out. Maybe you haven’t heard this in a while and you might not believe it right now but I want to tell you something.

Whoever you are, wherever you are – You are not alone!

You matter. Your dreams matter. God gave them to you for a reason and, even though you may feel misunderstood by others, do not misunderstand this: God has a plan for you that is perfect and bigger and better than anything you can imagine.

Today, if you find yourself peaking out from the shadows, wondering if it’s safe to come into the Light, the answer is yes! Don’t be afraid. Your God-sized dream awaits.

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them. Isaiah 42:16

 

The Beauty of Shadows

“Look round and round upon this bare bleak plain, and see even there, upon this winter’s day, how beautiful the shadows are!” Charles Dickens
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March is a month of transition. And we can hardly wait for winter to turn to spring. 
 
Soon, the days will stretch wide, like the arms of a dear friend coming for a long-awaited visit. And we will be wrapped in light. 

But even the dark of winter serves it’s purpose, causing us to retreat and contemplate the goodness of our God. The One who created this season as well as the next.

Truly, when we look around there is beauty everywhere. And, today, if you are seeing shadows, be thankful.

After all, shadows can’t exist without the sun.

Praying your weekend is beauty-full!
 
Throughout this month, leading up to Easter, I will be writing posts about the shadows that shape us while focusing on the Light that saves us. I hope you will join me!
 

 

Light Bulb Moments

I’m not sure when the light bulb flashed on in my mind. The moment I first understood that phrase “Let go and let God.”

Seems my whole life has been a learning and re-learning of that concept.

But last week, I was schooled in a most unlikely setting. My husband and I attended the funeral of his 55 year old cousin. A woman I, unfortunately, did not know well but feel like I grew to know through the beautiful eulogy offered by her son.

He stood at the front of the church and thanked the large crowd of family, friends and his mother’s former art students. He described how she had inspired so many, including himself, with her strong Christian faith and her positive spirit through difficult times.

She had survived breast cancer and, most recently after many years of waiting, a kidney transplant. Everyone got their hopes up only to have them come crashing down last week when we learned she had passed away from a heart attack.

And the overriding question everyone asked was, “Why?”

We just couldn’t make sense of it. Because we all want to see nice, happy endings wrapped up in a bow. But, the fact of the matter is, things don’t always go the way we plan.

And it was her grieving son who spoke words that seemed to fill the thick air with the only thing that does make sense.

He said, “Knowing God is better than knowing the answers.”

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I tried to catch the tears spilling with a tattered paper napkin I had found in my purse.

Interesting, isn’t it? The things you collect over a lifetime? All the stuff we carry around with us that we might not even be aware we are holding onto.

The thin paper napkin was wet and falling apart as I recalled other loved ones I’ve lost over the years and what that taught me about faith and the sovereignty of God.

He knows all the answers to all the why’s and all I have to do is trust Him at all times.

He is ALL I need.

“And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches
in glory by Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:19

I know this. That clenching my fist is just clinging to fear and letting go is the way to embrace grace. But it is good and necessary to be reminded.

Because it’s all these light bulb moments strung together that help us cut through the long, dark night on our journey towards glorious, unending day.