It took me a while to get to the door. Sore throat and lack of sleep from the night before had me cocooning under the covers seeking comfort for the aches and pains in my body and spirit.
I peeked out the window and noticed the words first. State Trooper in big, black letters on the side of the vehicle in front of my house. My heart raced as my mind turned to my husband. Was he okay? I tried to call him as I was unlocking the door. No answer.
Now, here was the officer standing on my front porch. And before he could speak, I felt my sore throat closing even tighter. The grip of fear choking me as he confirmed my name. And then the question.
“Do you have a son named Brandon?”
I sighed a relieved “No.” Then he uttered something that took my emotions from rising to falling in a split second.
“That’s good. I’m glad I didn’t have to give you the bad news.”
I immediately felt sorrow for the lady who will have to answer “Yes” to the State Trooper’s question. Brandon’s mother, who will open the door to the bad news she has no idea is coming her way.
I am praying now for her and for all of us who have found ourselves on this roller coaster ride called life, gripped with fear and wondering if God can hear our screams for help.
Because we are human and sometimes it’s hard to remember the high’s when we are low, remember that He is still in control.
I don’t think it’s a coincidence that someone sent me this quote and scripture verse in an email yesterday.
“Don’t worry about the future – worry quenches the work of grace within
you. The future belongs to God. He is in charge of all things. Never second
guess Him.” Francois Fenelon
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous be shaken. Psalm 55:22
And then I came across this post, encouraging me to remember that there is hope. That there is still good to be found, though it often emerges at the most unlikely times.
Yes, life is a roller coaster. But through all the ups and downs, God is strong and steady and He can create beauty out of the chaos when we least expect it.
So maybe today is the day?
Maybe. But even if it’s not, we can rest assured that God is with us speaking peace in the midst of the storm.
“This IS the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24